2013 in Review


It’s that time of the year again… where we each take a look back at the years past and deeply think about our choices and where we are currently. I will admit, 2013 has to be the rockiest year I’ve ever had. From arguments, to self struggle, and not to mention a couple break downs a long the way I have finally sorted through it all and feel so much better. With that, let’s take a look at Mercy’s Review of 2013!

  • The beginning of the year started off with friendships ending. Mercy & Luna was a show I did with a good friend of mine at the time. The show fell apart when we both wanted to be heard and in the end it became well, less fun. Our friendship fell apart when I needed someone there the most — I didn’t realize what was going on with me. In the end, I’m glad the friendship died out. It made me realize that it’s a part of life to get rid of people and although the end was horrid, the long friendship that was there had an importance at one point. I am glad that I did have the friendship and I do wish Luna well with all her adventures.
  • My boyfriend moved in last year on Christmas Eve and have had an interesting year not just finding ourselves but finding out where we are relationship wise and together on this big floating rock. There were tears, yelling, hugging, and laughter and I wouldn’t change it for the world! Through this year of emotional turmoil, we’re still with each other and not an ounce of time is wasted on sadness anymore! 
  • 2013 was definitely the year where I started my journey of self discovery. I admitted my faults and acknowledged them, grew from mistakes, and embrace my life instead of killing myself off in a manner that I won’t act upon anything. I had a lot of new experiences, scare a con, meeting new friends, going out a lot more, and embracing my oddities that make me – ME! I am a lovely young woman with a brain full of intellect that I shouldn’t dumb myself down to fit in with people who have caused me grief. I am tolerant, and observant. I am an old soul in a young body. I yearn to learn different cultures and other worlds. Books are my gateway to my soul and I enjoy being me very much. 
  • I started to realize that you need to pick battles and put your foot down. It’s not worth the complete headaches to fight small battles that don’t mean anything in the future. Fighting for a secure future and your dreams is worth more than money could buy! 


For what I’ve seen of this year, it’s been meaningful. I needed it to knock me out of what world in my head I was living in and start noticing the world around me in a better manner. Creativity is apart of who I am and it will never be pushed aside again. 2014 is the year of perseverance for me. Goals will be obtained. Failure is not an option. And on top of that my band, Demonic Refusal, will make it’s debut!


How was 2013 for you?!


– Mercy

Dear my little Devils and Ghouls


Dear Devils and Ghouls,

I simply adore all the feedback and follows you have given me and helping me become more of the person I truly am. I think it’s only fair that I share a few things with you as you guys are my loyal subjects.


First thing is – What was your first Youtube Video?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MccTu75-TjU   <– On my old channel: Morticiamasquerade I bring up my first youtube video ever made back when I was a Sophomore in high school (or around there.) My friend Samantha and I went on a road trip far far away from our homelands.


Where did you go from there?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqlyQiHeMTE  <– It went on to develop into a “Late night” live show I had with my best friend at the time, Luna Elysium. But after awhile, we started to notice that our friendship wasn’t as we thought it once was and that it was time to part ways in order for us to grow as individuals.


As you guys know, I’m now doing videos with my boyfriend on Unsuccessful Entertainment and my own channel.

I really enjoy making videos and I’m thinking of having a late night live with you guys again. It was a blast having a late night show every Friday night. I want to revive that with my boyfriend. Possibly doing a live music and film show? Hmmm… Would you Devils and Ghouls like that? If you would either like this post, send a comment, or give us a like on our facebook page.


– Mercy

What on earth is Mercy working on?


Little Devils,

It is with great pleasure that I am in the middle of creating short films for nobody’s pleasure. I am not a pro at this. Nor will I ever be. Why? I don’t know. But, hey it’s whatever.

After my creative side has been smushed up against the wall and choked to death for some time, I am just unleashing myself.


Cover Songs:

  • The Ripper – Judas Priest
  • Burning the Witches – Warlock
  • Warhead – Venom
  • Neon Knights – Black Sabbath


^ Yeah. Those are currently in the works.


I am so sick and tired of not enjoying life.


Good thing though, tomorrow is a Bon Fire! Only bon fire #2 that I’ve had this year which makes me sad.

I don’t really like not being out in the wilderness.

I want a tattoo. That is one goal this year. It needs to happen. Why? Because the idea I’ve had for my first tattoo has always been in my head since I was 16 sooo about 6 years now. Holy crap… I was 16 six years ago?


Parents aren’t kidding when they say after high school time flies.


Beavis and Butthead – were my baby sitters when I was a child. I mean come on, where are shows like that nowadays? It’s perfect!


Ghost Adventures bugs me. I mean, do we really need six repeats of the word “Get Out” ? I do believe in ghosts, but I do not believe in the television show because it’s beyond Bazurk!





I don’t know if I’m in the mood to throw confetti or not at the moment.


I mean, would I really want to throw confetti about this situation? It’s not really that good of a thing. In fact, it’s more of an annoyance. A major annoyance.  I don’t feel comfortable talking about that situation in public just yet.


In fact, I still don’t think it’s real. I think, they are just being weird and moronic.


I don’t want to sit here and worry about anything.


I want to fly like a tiny bat and have tea with a fruit fly. Ever have one of those days?


I know, I know. You guys are probably like… Mercy! Wehre are you?!


I’m right here. Only I’m being myself. Why? Because you live once. Don’t waste it being ashamed of who you are.


– Mercy Desdemona


Instrumentals & the human connection. [Opinion]


I am quite fond of instrumentals.

Especially when I feel that the music can tell a story. Fill a void within your body. Stir up a feeling of emotion. Music makes us feel human. No matter who we are, we get lost in music. We can feel it grip us. Instrumentals I feel have a deeper connection to us. Why? Because it’s just the instrumentation connecting with us. Leaving it up to us to interpret the story and cause a curiosity – bring about a world of fantasy and imagination!

When I need to break away from reality, my favorite instrumentals are my key. It’s funny how I interpret the songs – even when heard plenty of times – a different way depending on my emotion that day. I feel very fortunate to have this confidence and connection with my humanity. Many people deprive themselves of this marvelous and curious connection.

I have to thank music for being my confidant for so long and my companion to keep me keyed into humanity. To keep me from shedding my humanity shell and to chase after my dreams. It gave me self empowerment. Hope. Love. Hate. Pain. Good. Evil. It gave me a connection to the natural world.

This is my opinion on instrumentals.

What is yours?

– Mercy


Recommended Instrumentals:

Attention Musicians:


We are currently looking for bands to play at our music festival fundraiser. Our fundraiser will take place on May 18th, 2013 in Northern New York! 

Types of bands we are looking for:

  • Classic Rock
  • Blues
  • Easy Listening
  • Hard rock
  • Soft Rock
  • Jazz

If you or you know someone who is interested in playing, please contact me at: unsuccessfulentertainment@yahoo.com or on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/vintagehorrormistress

More details will be given out when e-mailed.


Thank you!



We have to be the most selfish and harmful animals on this planet. Any others just go get their food, mate to keep their species alive, and only go to war when their territory is threatened.

Humans however – Are far too domesticated. We take soil, water, air for granted. We forget we are only animals and part of nature itself. We rely on clean soil and water to survive. We mate at an ugly rate to the point of over population. We are liars, haters, fueled by pain.

Two things I never understood in my whole life:

Why did those of white skin ever call the natives savages? When it’s the “domesticated” race that’s the savage.

If you are aware of the planet and have a connection and appreciation for it – You’re a tree hugger dirty hippy. If you are a person fueled by hate and greed, takes nature for granted and believes you’re above it instead of apart of it – You’re most likely the CEO of a corporation or a billionaire.


Don’t ever take our earth for granted. As it is a living thing such as you and I. And times, we forget that we will bring our own demise for harming the earth. The earth is a friend not an enemy. Yet we go to “conquer” it like it’s ours to even conquer. Humanity won’t be around forever. It will only be our doing to end our species.

Dinosaurs were top dogs for a while.

We’re the next dinosaurs.



Dream – Positive Ouija Board & The Stranger – What does it mean?


Hey Creeps. 

Last night, despite my over stressing, I slept very well. Honestly, it may not seem like a big deal to you, but it is to someone that barely sleeps ever. I slept so good and woke up with high spirits! 

My dream: 

In my dream, I started off sitting on my lawn and a stranger came up to me. She was a woman of about 45 and dressed in women’s clothing from 1700s. She smiled at me and took my hand. 

Part One: I was dreaming about the business. I was at a meeting with people I didn’t know. it was some committee and I had to prove that I was worth the risk to loan me business credit. After the meeting, I had a smile on my face and a ouija board popped up in my dream. It kept saying positive messages such as yes, forward, accomplish, and the company of which I’m seeking a loan from. Anyone know what this part means?

Part two: My boyfriend and I were on the road together. In a band with some of his pals he recently re-connected with. We were having a good time. This girl tried to come between us but failed and he kept announcing how we’re together forever. She kept trying because she used to be associated with him in the past but she never succeeded and it all of a sudden started to flash before my eyes. All good memories and events that happen to us in our journey together. Two orbs came out of our bodies and intertwined. What does that mean?

Part 3: The positive ouija board came out again. With words of encouragement. Esther is the woman’s name. She says she’s my spirit guide and but couldn’t speak so she spelled out. She wanted me to feel better and know I’m on the right track. 



– I researched the name Esther circa 1700s… she used to live on my property. One of the first people to be in my town. She claimed in my dream to have been watching me a long time and she will guide the way. 


– What does this dream all mean?!

I have had positive energy and a smile on my face ever since the dream. I couldn’t stop smiling even when I try. What is going on?!



Battle with Insecurities


My Battle with Insecurities

Dearest Creeps,

                I thought I would share my experience with insecurities to sort of help people that stumble upon this blog. Please, forgive me for my horrible wording and blunt nature. I just have to be myself, and this blog isn’t an attack on anyone. (It’s sad that now I have to type that disclaimer.) I battled with insecurities for a long time. Mainly because I was uncomfortable with who I was and never showed it to the public eye of what I was going through within my mind, body, and soul. I am a very private individual, only usually sharing my opinions on certain subjects. But, I see a lot of people going through what I had to go through and I don’t want people to almost hit rock bottom like I have.

              I was the person in the back of the classroom, that the teachers didn’t ever know if I was actually present or just skipping school. The bookworm, rocking the “Cousin It” hair do and voted “Most Independent” & “Quietest” in a high school yearbook. I’m a short person, in need of braces, dealing with personal issues at the time and struggles that almost completely devoured my sanity. At first, I didn’t really have a specific outlet for my issues. I didn’t trust the friends that were around me because I was a very untrusting individual when it came to “outsiders” of myself.

              I was a victim of bullying – not only at school, but by my mother at home. I had to deal with feeling completely down about myself almost 24/7. I dumbed myself down so I wouldn’t have to deal with being pushed around. I didn’t want to be the smart kid or the person people pushed around at all. I was hiding who I really was – just to avoid people in general. I wanted nothing to do with the world around me.

           One thing I didn’t realize until my Junior year in high school  – I was my own worst enemy, my own personal bully. I dealt with social anxiety. I didn’t feel confident even doing a book report in front of the class and it was all becuase of what my brain was causing me to think about the audience. The fear over took me and I allowed my grades, friendships, work plummet all becuase of this issue.

          I am proud to say that I am over it. And here is how:

  1. Admit & Realize you are your own worst enemyHardest thing to do in all honesty. Mainly becuase as humans we don’t want to see the faults that we have. We always want to point the finger – and it’s wrong. Yes, there are other factors that can cause you to have a problem. But with insecurities, I found out that the worst enemy was myself! I started actually verbally beating myself down until I was in tears – Without even realizing it was the issue!
  2. Look it Over – Look it over! Picture the issue like a rock in your hands. Flip it over. Look at it all over. Notice what parts are smooth, what parts are rough and unpleasant to the touch. Identify what parts you’d like to smooth out.
  3. Out of the Box – Step out of your comfort zone. Honestly, I had to start making videos and talk more in public to get out of my fears and insecurities. I didn’t think my ideas or thoughts were important or helpful in any situation becuase for so long I was treated like I was the village idiot! Never be ashamed of what skills and thoughts you can offer to the table! We live in a society where intelligence is bashed for absolutely NO REASON!
  4. Find an Outlet/Hobby – I know, I know. This is in all the self-help books and pamphlets. But, honestly it’s quite helpful. I started to express myself through writing and music and picked up photography as a hobby. It helped me control the emotions and keep my mind on a thoughtful and correct track. Not only that, but it helped me build my confidence!
  5. Say your faults outloud! – Go lock yourself in the bathroom. Look at your faults – we all have them becuase we’re human. And mention them to yourself. Why the hell would I have you do this when I said stop bullying yourself? Because in order to be confident about yourself you have to be able to accept the fact that you are a human being. You aren’t perfect. You have faults. Here’s 3 things on my list: I have an overbite, I despise – My nose is crooked from when it was broken – I can be brutally honest and hurt people without realizing.
  6. Accept your faults – Accept you! – Life is too short to allow insecurities to stop you from achieving your dreams, goals and desires. Sometimes it’s up to you to light your own fire beneath yourself to get you going. Accept the fact that you aren’t perfect. That in life you never stop learning. That the world is an interesting place, that can teach us how to move forward instead of repeating history. That you are capable of going on doing your own thing and not have to worry about the asshole trying to knock you down becuase they are forever alone and most likely talk to a stuffed teddy bear named Lou.

I don’t know if my words mean anything to anyone out there in the world. And, I sure as hell am not a professional. I just want to tell you from my eyes and from my experience. If some of these things apply to you and help you – I’m glad. If not, it’s alright to becuase composing this blog post helped myself as an individual.

Never sell yourself into the bully’s word and become what they claim you are!

I must go. My stomach is alerting me that it is in need of some food. Away to the fridge.

Blood & Guts,

Mercy Desdemona

Machine Regime


Don’ fear the living dead.

It’s just rotting flesh.

Not a bringer of doom.

Be afraid of the living.

And what they consume.

You gave it life.

You fed it power.

Now it is us,

it shall devour!

Don’t fear a spiritual encounter.

It’s just a human soul.

Fear the man-made machine.

And the technology regime.

You gave it life.

You fed it power.

Now it is us,

it shall devour!

It has superior weaponry.

Making man a mockery.

We are the living zombie.

Sold our soul to technology.

You gave it life.

You fed it power.

Now it is us,

it shall devour!

It sits and waits for the perfect time.

To take a hold, of the world we have bestowed.

Don’t fear the poor.

Fear the elite.

A force still left un-beat.

You gave it life.

You fed it power.

Now it is us,

it shall devour!

– © Mercy Desdemona 2013

Mystic Land


In the mystic lands.

With food so plenty.

Where mystery creatures,

were once our teachers.

A world where the mind,

was free to fully bloom.

Knowledge was power.

No bias media to consume.

Where has this mystic land gone?

Why was there only one?

Oh where is this mystic land?

Why are we fed the devil’s hand?

The heart & soul had reigned on earth.

The mighty evil powers, struck down by the Gods.

Simplicity based.

Born to strive necessity.

Not luxury.

Where has this mystic land gone?

Why was there only one?

Oh where is this mystic land?

Why are we fed the devil’s hand?

We live in a world where knowledge is terrorism.

A heart the enemy, people roaming hungry.

The creatures are now extinct.

We’re programmed to think.

Where has this mystic land gone?

Why was there only one?

Oh where is this mystic land?

Why are we fed the devil’s hand?

Home is this mystic land.

Where I strive to be.

Oh, take me to this mystic land.

Just please set me free.

Home is this mystic land.

A human being I shall be.

With fields of imagination.

Heaps of creativity.

Where has this mystic land gone?

Why was there only one?

Oh where is this mystic land?

Why are we fed the devil’s hand?

Home is this mystic land.

Please take me home.

Where I can roam free.

I want to go home.

© Mercy Desdemona 2013