Work, Funding, Adventures, Emotion Curse



I know I haven’t been active and I apologize. With all the situations I’m going through, I don’t spend much time on the web for leisure but more so for work. And the work is 24/7 – NON stop. Good news is I’m making a breakthrough with my efforts. Bad news is, my family isn’t being as strong as they usually are. My fundraiser is coming along nicely. Even with the bumps in the road. I honestly, can see it helping us. I also talked to my bf about one of us getting a part-time cashier’s job at the local grocery store just until the funding is deposited into my bank account. I found a company from New Jersey that’s willing to give me a try because of my usage of my business credit card. Even though I’ve only used it for a month, it was strictly for business expenses. Nothing more. It built up a good rep enough for them to take a “risk” on me. I will know more on Wednesday.

The only problem I’m having is the curse of being able to soak in the emotions around me. I am one of those people where if you put me in a room full of people, I can feel what everyone feels on the inside,despite the outer shell they put on. It’s a curse of mine because I can then feel this gigantic depressive cloud go over my shoulders. It then proceeds to push my self confidence down to a small bit and I just want to rock back and forth in the fetal position.

I’m using the power of music to keep me in check. I feel tears in my eyes because I wish I could take away the pain felt in the household around me. I know the only way is when this funding is secured. I also know that if one of the people in this house obtains that part-time cashier position – that will also take a load off and help put towards the opening of the family ice cream shop.

I’m confident in my path… yet I get weak in front of my father. Why? When I have so much power within me. I suppose I don’t want to defy him in any way. I would never want to break his trust especially after all he’s done for me. But, this fundraiser and such is a big deal that needs to happen. I’m working mighty mighty hard on what I’m doing. And I refuse to have anything taken from me.

Tomorrow – We’re calling the grocery store for the part-time job. Most likely won’t be me since I have to be at home talking to lenders on the phone. But if my brother or my boyfriend obtain the position it will help a great deal!

I think I have vented enough.

– Mercy


Business Judgement Day & Dream interpretation


Hello Creeps.

So, Monday is the day I can hopefully move forward with my business and save my family from potential doomsday. (which is coming along rather quickly) I will be talking with an underwriter from a company that offers a business line of credit. So far, so good. I’m both excited and nervous about what will become of the phone meeting and interview. In this interview, I have to defend my business plan and show why they should risk me when I have little to no credit. My younger brother is the only co-signer option I have but he’s 18 and has no credit what’s so ever. So, now I’m making homemade mac and cheese hoping that it will bring me good news tomorrow. I’m tired of the horrid news and want to move forward.

The dream I had last week about the positive Ouija board has been interpreted for me.

Positive Ouija Board: Your spirit guide was making an effort to talk to you and gain your attention. Shows that even though you have had hardship, good news and smooth sails are on the way. Hard work and efforts shall pay off despite major negativity.

Hopefully they are correct.


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Mercy Desdemona

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