Actions of Others

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Have you ever had to suffer the consequences due to an other person’s actions? I have for a majority of my life and I’m getting tired of it. The more I show that I am not the person that did the horrid deeds the more and more I have to pay becuase I am a child of that person. You see creeps – my mother made poor decisions. And didn’t have to pay for her actions whatsoever. After she took off — I HAD to deal with what she created and still do ’til this day even though that was back in 2007! You my lovely Ghouls – For some reason my mother had to go around and ruin my reputation. Claiming I’m just as she when in reality — she doesn’t know me at all. I get the backlash from her actions when I didn’t do anything wrong. I was a kid at the time all this was happening. So how on earth could I cause anything? That’s right I couldn’t!

For so many years I had to put up with bullying, harrassment, and accusations because of the woman that gave birth to me. When will enough be enough?! When will it be her turn to pay for the actions she put forth!?! Why should I be the scapegoat to her madness? I shouldn’t! I had to deal with her drinking, her abuse, and lies for what? So she can have a cheap thrill?

Truth of the matter is – Don’t let this sort of crap get you down. Sure you may need to vent like I did above. But you’re better than the person that caused the ruckus. You’re the champion going after your dreams. You’re the individual that will have life they’ve always wanted. Because you learned how NOT to be in life. There will be days when you ask the ever so popular: “Why Me?!” Truth is, that question will never be answered. That is because there isn’t one. No one knows why you were chosen to go through situations like that. But take the negative to fuel a positive. Take that angst and gear it towards your dream career. Gear it towards productivity. I say this because no matter how much you confront the individual(s) that created a monster for you – They’ll never get it. It’s like talking to a wall. You seriously need to throw out all the fucks you give and head on through. Stand tall and proud. While those individuals will cower and crawl!

Make your mark in this life. Whether it be large or small. Because the one thing you should never have to do is be ashamed of the situations you’ve been through – and most of all you should never be ashamed of who you are!

Blood & Guts (with a hint of wisdom)

– Mercy Desdemona

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Remember 2012

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Creeps:

I haven’t had the time to formally sit down and write about my 2012 summary and how life has changed. People have come and gone into my life, I’ve grown into a strong young woman, lessons have been learned. I do receive questions about why my live show with Luna has ended. The thing is: Her and I both grew up. Mercy and Luna was just a hang out we did to break our shyness barrier. We were both meek ladies who have blossomed into the women we are today. With growing up, friends also grow apart. We have our own individual goals and dreams to accomplish and although we are no longer on speaking terms I do wish her the best of luck.

2012 was a struggle and emotionally exhausting. I take a look back now and see that all of that was needed in order to start anew in this grand year of 2013. Things have changed for the greater. I’m currently in the process of opening an ice cream parlor as the family business, I met the love of my life of which he moved in on Christmas, My music dreams are slowly but surely coming into view, I’m working on writing a horror film and I am a stronger/confident individual than I was in 2012.

In 2012, I came across a lot of people that I believed were good friends. When in actuality, they were nothing but people that used me as a doormat and somewhat were bullies. I didn’t realize this fact until I began to share my opinions and start truly being myself. Yes, I am a horror junkie, a metal head, sarcastic/dark humored, brutally honest, Dr. pepper and mac and cheese addict! I can admit my personality isn’t for everyone and I can be taken the wrong way. People only liked it when I agreed with them or didn’t challenge their view point. After awhile, it was right to wash my hands of the people that I did call friends.

I must say good riddance to 2012. Thank you for the negative experience and the life lessons. You will actually be kept documented within my brain for future reference.

Thanks for wasting time with my existence.

Blood & Guts

– Mercy Desdemona –