Where have I Been? *Self Discovery*


Hello dear creeps.

I have missed you and I highly doubt you’ve missed my babble. The time has come for music fest to be just around the corner. We have to fix up some loose ends but that’s about it. Next weekend is the first ever Dissident Overdrive Music Festival! I am also hearing from my funding advisor about my business line of credit within the next 24-48 hours! A lot of anxiety, tears, happiness, and over all stressful schizophrenia has brought me to this point. I really hope I hear grand news after all my hard work. I am really anxious to get my proof of funding to hang up on my wall. 

Now that the music fest is underway, I can concentrate more on the ice cream shop. I have to work on a LOT of things. But it will all be taken care of. My brother has been made financial advisor which I think is appropriate since he is a mathematical genius and I’m mathematically challenged. 

Important things I’ve learned in this long, stressful process:


  • Pride = DAMAGE!: Having pride is a good thing in some cases, but having so much pride that you’re ashamed of asking for help isn’t good. It will make you a very resentful human being with a bunch of stress and anxiety.
  • Be yourself!:  Be 100% you. Don’t bend over backwards and allow people to walk on you. They get angry with you? So what. You’re being yourself and 100% true.
  • Let Go: Let go of any past experiences that may have made you into something your not. Don’t let the past hold you back from having an amazing future.
  • Surround yourself with a good team: Every person has unique strengths. Find their niche and put them in charge of that. A well-oiled machine goes a lot farther than one that sputters!
  • Confidence is key: Honestly, you can do it. Nay-sayers nay-say because they have nothing else to say. So… yeah. Ditch those lousy people and go for it. You life once. It’s better to have tried than wonder “what if”. 


Have a good day creeps.


Blood & guts,





Why do teachers always get so angry when a student questions the subject matter? Isn’t that what education is about? To question and learn? Not to memorize and drone?

In my eyes, questioning a subject matter to gain knowledge about said subject – is getting an education. Memorizing the facts and filling in bubbles is not an education. Education is about questions. Digging deep into the depths of our minds. Finding that subject we can’t get enough of – for me it’s history! And question the teachers. If we as students don’t feel we’re particularly happy with an explanation, why not question? Not obnoxiously, but there are situations where sometimes, you have to question due to biased text books and articles.

Imagine if Thomas Edison, Tesla, Einstein – never questioned the world around them. Where would we as humans be today?

Ancient Symbols


The Original Meaning
The word “swastika” comes from the Sanskrit svastika – “su” meaning “good,” “asti” meaning “to be,” and “ka” as a suffix.

Until the Nazis used this symbol, the swastika was used by many cultures throughout the past 3,000 years to represent life, sun, power, strength, and good luck

Ancient symbols and words have lost there meaning and have come something they’ve never supposed to be. Normally, when you see Swastika you think of the Nazi Regime as we’re taught in high school. But dears, we’ve been around long before that time. There was a time where symbols had beautiful meanings and as man-kind grew they became ugly just like man-kind themselves. 

I love studying the ancients. I feel right at home while reading about their lives and wish I had the power to observe them. Not like a stalker, but an intrigued nerd with a history obsession. Why is it that in school we aren’t taught more of the ancient symbols and communication? We can’t say there isn’t any documents nor evidence of their communication systems. Why hide the meaning of these symbols that our ancients left behind? Why only teach us one sided studies?