Back to YouTube!

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Hello Devils and Ghouls!

I have decided to go ahead and upload regularly on my YouTube channels – Both Unsuccessful Entertainment & Mercy Desdemona. I want to have more interaction with my followers and get back into being the creative little lady I am. Unsuccessful Entertainment is where my boyfriend and I will continue with what we were doing. My Mercy Desdemona Channel will be my blogs and more. I think it will help me with my journey and hopefully help others in my shoes. I know that I have what it take to branch out of my shell and it’s time to do so. I have had the year from hell. And I have realized through my trials that being myself is all that matters and that I AM good enough. I’m not trying to please others any longer. I have successfully received funding for my family’s restaurant, and I will be opening in the fall. I am also traveling down to a horror convention in September for my birthday weekend. We will have: Videos, Pictures, Interviews. And I will be hosting a contest coming back from horror con for my devils and ghouls that enjoy horror as much as  I do.

I am very fortunate to have my boyfriend with me through all these hard times. Although, we’ve had our fair share of blowouts, we’re still here. Still together and still very strong – if not stronger than before. I am staying true to myself now. I am doing what I have to do to be the leader I am deep inside. For far too long, I have held back out of fear. Depression took out my fire and here I am stomping on it all. I’ve never felt so empowered or spiritually connected to myself and life itself.

I do hope some of my readers on here subscribe to the two channels and support myself and my boyfriend on our journey. I am excited to share my musical talents and just who I am with the world.

I have to edit a video that was shot yesterday. It’s a silly little Diddy, and I didn’t realize my boyfriend was filming me at all while i was visiting the neighbors.

I’m also thinking of coming up with a few designs for some merchandise for my followers both on here and other places on the web.

I appreciate your interweb stalking and Welcome to my world.

 

XoXo

 

Mercy Desdemona

 

 

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A Day Out & More (Photography & Blog)

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Hello Creeps.

I have to say, I’ve enjoyed the somewhat decent weather lately that allows me to go out and about with my love and capture photographs. I have been very stressed lately looking for a co-signer that not only is willing to do such, but also be able to qualify. I’m certain that I have two people available but they are leery about it. Only because of my age. They are flesh and blood, and they are discriminating against my age! I will have it settled promptly though. I have a feeling this snag will be over promptly! And for the better!

My music festival is coming along great! What I hate is that I’m working in a small time frame! I despise working on things in a small time frame because it has to be put together at a quick rate! But, I know I can make this a success. My boyfriend has had experience in creating festivals first hand. So between the two of us, we can make this a reality! This music festival will feature my band, Fatal Fury, as the headliners! It will be our first appearance! Hopefully, we will raise funds and awareness to my ice cream venture! That’s the main reason for this festival! Also, I want to make this festival a Yearly festival sponsored by my ice cream shop! These are my goals and I can assure you I will most definitely achieve them! So far, we have come up with the name: Dissident Overdrive Music Festival. This festival isn’t just a fundraiser, but it helps promote local talents/bands and businesses. It’s about the strength in a community and it is the FIRST festival to ever take place in my area. Talk about pressure to make it great! So far, I have 3 choices for venues that I have to call tomorrow to book the date. Second step, is to pass around the flyers and raise awareness! My heart and soul is going both into this festival and my family’s business. The business will help my family in their successes! Co-signer will happen as I’m offering it as an investment into the company and offer payment for their time as a temporary co-signer. 🙂

Today, my love and I had the pleasure of strolling down the street for some lovely soda pop and took a few pictures. We found some old ruins by one of the cemeteries that we frequent. It was a lovely but FREEZING stroll as we have a winter snow warning in April. (Welcome to New York!) For some reason, when I hear songs with a groovy beat I feel like dancing like the go-go dancers in the 60s. You know, when it was freestyle dancing and not hoochie mc hooch hooch. Anyways, below are some photographs (unedited!) that we took today!

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© Mercy Desdemona 2013

 

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New Chapter – Out with the Old.

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New Chapter: 

Step One: Out with the Old

Creeps,

         My belly is full of bats circling around like maniacs as I begin my new chapter in my young life. You all seemed to enjoy my “Battle with Insecurities” blog. I really appreciate all the kind words I get from you followers. To be honest, this blog is helping me towards my goal and each follow, like and comment is really motivational! So thank you lots for taking your time to waste time with my existence.

         This post is going to be a little similar to my insecurities blog. I’ve been struggling with depression, insecurities, and built up anger for some time now and I just noticed last month that I needed to let things go and move on instead of staying in one place. I can’t expect anything of my life if I stay in the same portion – because of pain, anger, insecurities, fears, and the fact that I’m in my comfort zone.

         We’ll talk about what I did to do Step One of the new chapter. I’m going to be writing a “New Chapter” blog once a week. Hopefully, it will help you guys in your endeavors. Step One: Out with the Old! You can’t move forward if you still are stuck with old grievances, situations, etc.

  What I did:

  • Write a letter – whether you decide to send it to recipient or not is up to you, but in my situation I had 5 people that claimed to be dear friends leave me when I was in the dirt. Instead of helping my depression, they beat me down for it. They bullied me and attempted to shape me into their ideals and mannerisms instead of being my friend. I can admit even I was at fault for my poor attitude, but even when I did reach out for help politely, I got spit on. My advice, write a Neutral letter letting all your feelings out. What I mean by neutral is – a letter that won’t spark hard feelings or argument. Be straight and to the point, but in a polite and calm manner. It will be taken a lot more seriously. I sent my letters via facebook to those that beat me down. Whether they read it or not is their option. I say that because I did it for myself and wouldn’t keep any hard feelings within me.
  • Write down goals – Write down your goals in a notebook. My notebook is full of goals and looks like chicken scratch (hopefully you guys have better penmanship!) Writing down your list of goals sounds lame and cheesy but honestly, it gets the brain focused. Here are a few Goals from my list: 1 – Get family business Established. 2 – Practice Vocals. 3 – Write horror script. 4 – Publish a short-story book series (13 books total). 5 – Get my band in order. 6 – Get music store established at a physical building.
  • Look at the people around you – During your depression or time of need, take a good look at the people that stuck by your side. These people are true to your life and will be there anytime. For me, my boyfriend was very helpful in helping me get out of my depression, my father, and my best friend from high school who I hadn’t seen or talked too in 3 years! These people have seen me at my worst and know how to be there for me when I’m in my dark space or my happy space. I thank them very much for the support, help, and care they have given to me!
  • Attack Goal 1 – Start attacking that first goal. It will give you a sense of purpose and pride. Surprisingly, I am working well to getting my family’s business well-established and open by the summer. It’s giving me opportunities that wouldn’t be available to me otherwise! It’s giving me experience and connections within the business community. And most of all, it’s my way of contributing to my family. Starting on that first goal will re-build your confidence! So do it!
  • Embrace being human! – We are human beings. We have ups and downs. Side to sides! Flip flops! Belly Flops! Climbs and falls! It is what is so beautiful about us. Embrace your humanity. Your creativity. Your emotion! Embrace that fact that your tears and laughter are milestones in your life. That your pain is an obstacle to make you a much better human being. Embrace that fact that we too are apart of nature and not a machine. We are part of the seasons, sunsets and sunrises. Full moons that light the night, and the stars above are our souls. We are just human. Nothing wrong with that! (I know I say this frequently in my blog posts like this, but damn it! It’s so important!)

Creeps, I do hope you enjoyed this blog entry and that it was somewhat helpful. Tune in next week as I march over another obstacle and attempt to share with you helpful tips!

It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity

-Albert Einsten: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/humanity.html

– Blood & Guts,

Mercy Desdemona of Unsuccessful Entertainment

Childhood Memory – White Zombie & My first song

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Hello Creeps.

Whilst at work, I was watching the music video for White Zombie’s More Human than Human. When I was a little girl, I used to hear and watch this video all the time. That is the band that caught my attention with bass. Especially, since a female was on the bass guitar. Me being the little curly haired blonde that I was would secretly pretend I was Sean Yseult.

Image from Google Images.

Image from Google Images.

Yep. Thanks to Sean I was inspired to up the bass. Although it wasn’t easy. I first tried out drums. But drums didn’t feel “me” at all. I felt off. It wasn’t my place nor in my heart. In the school band I was a clarinetist, but at home I would start practicing bass material on this cheapo off-brand bass guitar that was picked up at a fire station garage sale. I’ve always been attracted to the sound of the bass. Whether it’s in a Groovy metal tone such as White Zombie, Heavy Doom like in Type O, and my favorite DISTORTION! For some reason, the sound of the bass felt in my heart. I could relate, pour my heart out and just play for hours.

Old Picture of good ol' Me.

Old Picture of good ol’ Me.

The first song that I came up with was of Halloween creatures. I would stand up in front of my grandma’s dishwasher – so I could see my reflection – and sing as loud and lovely as I could about the moon, the stars, and the “skelskins” (skeletons – gimmie a break! I was 3!). I would continue to sing on about how the creatures weren’t scary at all but how they were my friends. (if that didn’t hint to the fact that I would turn into this:

© Mercy Desdemona 2013

© Mercy Desdemona 2013

I do not know..)

Back to my tale, I would always sing songs that had a sort of story. All coming from my imagination. As a young adult, I see that I am still that person. Music is my calling and will never leave me. Being a vocalist and bass player means a lot to me. It’s where I know everything is okay. It’s where I know my imagination is still alive within me. Creativity never dies. I am proud to be of the imaginative kind. So many people grow up to become the stereotype that you must let dreams die and sacrifice your well being for it all.

That my friends, isn’t the case. What is the point of living life a lie when you could be living the life you’ve always wanted and enjoy it?

Have a dreadful Thursday mourning.

— Mercy Desdemona —